Today is my WLS one-year anniversary.
Good news: I lost almost 100 lbs, diabetes and apnea are gone.
Bad news: I never reached my goal (so far).
My scheduled abdominoplasty is in 7 weeks and saga continues.
Overall, I am very happy about my decision, and 80% happy with the results.
I am not sure if my goal was realistic as 165 lbs was the weight when I was in my thirties. However, I still hope to get there.
Long time ago I quit smoking and after I quit, I had some nightmares that I took a cigarette again. I knew that one cigarette would bring the old addiction back. However, now it is different, because I have to eat. It is like quitting cigarettes, but in order to survive you must have few… 8^)
It is difficult to stay focused as my cravings have returned, and the fear of getting back to old habits is very real. I decided not to make any resolutions, as I did not keep so many before. Resolutions not kept made me feel like a failure even when there was great deal of success.
The journey continues, the destination is still NOT within the sight, but much, much closer.
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
I am approaching one-year anniversary. Many thoughts, reflections, and resolutions.
- My weight stabilized at slightly over 200 (last was 208) and it is not going down. To be honest, I do not exercise as much as I was hoping for, and I have plenty of excuses, but no good reason for not doing it. I feel great, healthy, the tiredness is gone, but there is no great deal of newfound energy. It is sort of coasting on neutral.
- I am very scared that my brain is still unchanged as I experience cravings for foods that are not exactly post-bariatric staple. I crave carbs, don’t care about meat. The fear of falling back to bad habits is real.
- I made decision to have abdominoplasty with diastasis. Today I paid $4,000 down payment toward the surgery. The total cost will be around $10,000. Expensive, but part of my ‘reconstruction’. The surgery is scheduled for middle of August.
- I am so glad I kept this blog as I can revisit my trip and read about stuff I already forgot.
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